WAVES AND SHADOWS May 11, 2024

October 29, 2021

"I will rejoice in doing them good, and I will plant them in this land in faithfulness, with all My heart and all My soul." Jeremiah 32:41 ESV

Lord,

My first crisis today. BW always took care of the big decisions and details. But today I learned that I need new lateral lines. Thankfully, I knew who to call for the best service to take care of them. One of BW's closest friends from church, Jack, was just the one to call for a reference. I'm thankful for the help and for resources to have it taken care of. Ultimately, You are the provider through BW's hard work these many years..

The loneliness was palpable today and a little frightening. The time with Mandy's family, the phone visits with Sherian, Joyce, Gea, Mary, and Kay helped. But You are the source of our strength and comfort. You alone.

I made it though another day and my first big crisis.

"I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you." so that we confidently say, 'The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid...'"    Hebrews 13:5b-6a

God, You are good because You always make a way. And because You will never forsake us.

October 30, 2021

"We love Him, because He fist loved us."  I John 4:19 NKJV

9:00 AM

I've been coming to You at the end of my day for comfort. For trying to process the events of that day.

I need to begin my day with You. To ask You to fill me with more of Jesus. And to seek Your will and guidance in filling my day, to guide me through an endless to-do list - the most important things, or just moving through what I see before me one step, one moment, at a time.

I pray for Gea and Mandy as they strive to live out and grow stronger in their faith in the daily lives of their families. And for each one who needs your comfort. The grief is heavy and so real for each one who knew and who still loves BW. 

Evening

You saw my melt down at Mandy's. She and Ken were kind and reassuring. But the guilt of not knowing if I had anything to do with BW getting sick, or if I failed him in any way that could have led to what he went through and now the sorrow without him that is so painful. Please give me in Your Word and in my spirit that I have Your forgiveness and that his life truly was in Your hands, not mine..

"Since his days are determined, the number of his months are with You, and his limits You have set so that he cannot pass."  Job 14:5

I read these words again, knowing I have to accept the things I can't understand by having faith in Your plan, in those "limits" only You can know.

God, You are good because You speak to us through Your Word.