"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love..." Ephesians 1:3,4 NKJV
"May my all-consuming thoughts of You be more than of my all-consuming grief." Bro. Tom Elliff
November 11, 2021
I get a little scared when the pain isn't there. Loving BW is my joy. You are my joy. I know You are ever present. My heart's cry is for my love and the memories of him to also be ever present, in his proper place after You. The sorrow I feel does remind me that BW is still very much with me. I'll embrace the sorrow in the moment, then carry the sweetness of him throughout the day.
November 12, 2021
Our women's ministry at First Southern hosted a beautiful dinner last night. It was special to have Mandy there with me. Sweet friends taking time to offer comfort and loving support.
Maxie, who is also in in need of support as she grieves, Marsha - such a beautiful soul, Nelda Lee, who would have let me talk as long as I dared, and as she bravely faces the grief of losing her husband (also from COVID) a year before BW. She is one of the facilitators of Grief Share that will begin in January. We sat with Pat and her daughter-in-law Alaina who know the grief of losing a grandson/son.Their family shows incredible courage and faith still.
Lord, you brought me through several painful moments yesterday. I know You will again. Thank You for being such a personal and loving God. Thank You for Jesus Christ, our Savior.
November 13, 2021
That sinking, panicky feeling still takes over at will. When I open my mouth to speak, I cry instead. You are my only hope. Days without number are stretching before me. I don't want to be like those who say, "It will never get better." Please show me how to keep remembering BW and how to keep him alive in my heart without so much pain and anxiety. The emptiness. Only You can do the impossible.
God, You are good because You bring us through those moments of unbearable sorrow that give us courage to face the ones that will continue to come in waves, followed by times of joy, followed by grief, then joy ... And because You established Your church, a place for a family of believers to lead and to support each other in these difficult times. You are at the center of all our moments ... where joy and sorrow meet.
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